grow me a garden of roses

Ahem. For new people, or anyone who realizes I am this weird person who is on the ol' f-list for unknown reasons.

( Intro post is intro. )

Okay, enough of that. Ick. HEY THERE. Introduce yourself or just say hi! Alternatively, ask me any questions you may have. I'm open. ♥

Blah blah blah you can laugh at me now, because I grudgingly admit that I have been browsing the internet for decent Code Geass fic. Let me just say: I recently finished watching the series for the second time, and holy god it was so much more fun after spending nine months around the psycho anonymous fans. I will never stop laughing. The fandom is seriously weird, though. It's like, every day I'm in this fandom, I despairingly wonder why. (And then I run across something like this or this and I laugh myself sick and I remember.)

But anyway, point being, good writing is scarce in this fandom. Just about everything I have ever read has mashed every single fic-peeve I have. Sentences like, "The blond pilot grinned," just make me want to crush the life out of someone. Totally out-there blatant rape fantasies NOT SEXY OKAY NOT SEXY and character bashing and just. Most of the kink meme prompts alone makes me make faces like this. The /cm/ Suzaku threads are also pretty spectacular examples of horror and hilarity.

That all being said, I've found this awesome story! Primary Gain, by anlaaria. Oh my god. It's AU, sounds sort of dubious on premise alone--FBI-agent Suzaku, psychologist Lelouch--but...jesus. It is actually one of the most thoughtful, well-written things I've read in a long time. Her Lelouch is actually very sad and cool and intense, and her Suzaku is amazing. He's self-deprecating and funny and sweet and occasionally alarmingly dangerous and just everything I ever want out of Suzaku, ever. (And if AU stuff isn't your cuppa, then read Acceptance instead which is kind of um incredibly hot. I envy how hot this fic's cockpit sex is.)

So I guess this is an author rec more than anything. But there you go. Just had to get that out of my system.

I have so many things to do, ack. Commissions and work and commissions! I have another job, hi. ♥ Am working at a local bakery now. Guys I get tips. *_* This is a new thing for me. So there's a rambly sketchy geeky post coming soon, and I swear all you guys who need emails from me will in fact get them. Thanks for the birthday wishessss, love and love.

ANYWAY. This is the post where I stamp my foot and say that finally, Angel is done. This would be the novel-length story I wrote freshman year, am occasionally ashamed of, more occasionally in love with, and is more or less a testament to my devotion to Rosencrantz & Guildenstern are Dead and Hamlet. Just finished my most extensive editing since it was originally complete, and it is finally up all up on the new web site.

( This is my celebratory picture and an actual sort of plot summary, which for some reason I've never actually written? What is wrong with me. )

Also, I changed my AIM screen name. The new can be found on mein profile.

Before bed, else I shall forget. Reasons why I am dumb: every single one of these was written within two hours of the day it was due, if not the day of, and I have not done anything to help myself along with this problem over the course of the whole month. Hilariously, they were all done on time. On the bright side, I can still sprint-write. On the stupid side, goddammit this is dumb.

I'd be more irritated with myself, but I also been cheerfully trolling some anonymous kink memes, so I'm just groovin' along at a nice average of about 3K each day that I actually write. No cut here because I am being temperamental and lazy.

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Damaris
Wild Adapter // Kubota/Tokitoh, PG
1121 words
Random-anecdote-fic. Kubota and Tokitoh and evolution winning out.
( Sleeping Tokitoh makes Kubota remember him thin and nameless, and he wonders, briefly, about sleeping Minoru. )


Nonpareil
Twelfth Night // Olivia/Viola, R
405 words
A stolen moment and a transient deception.
( Viola puts her lips to Olivia's hand, the hard edge of rings at her lip in an answering kiss of body-warm metal, and kneels, her heart loud as the sea in her ears. )


Come Thou Font
D.Gray-Man // Lavi/Allen/Lenalee, PG
3308 words
The night before the end of the world, the Earl made his move.
( There was a long moment of silence, and then Lenalee peered down at him in the darkness and whispered, Are you frightened? )


Borderline
Code Geass // Suzaku/Lelouch, NC-17
3512 words
It is much harder to hate Lelouch than it should ever be.
( The problem with Lelouch is, and always will be, that he's royalty. )


Summer Tide
Twelve Kingdoms // Youko/Keiki, G
511 words
A moment.
( He bent and nosed through the flowers by her knee, his mane tumbling over his neck in a cool, gentle fall. )


A Mad and Faithful Telling
D.Gray-Man // Lavi/Allen, shamefully tame PG
2252 words
In which nothing actually happens, other than Lavi and Allen accidentally destroying a church. Snapshotfic?
( In Lavi’s defense, he didn’t really mean to do anything out of the ordinary, and he wasn’t the one who struck the final blow, anyway. )


Beloved
Abhorsen series // Touchstone/Sabriel, G
902 words
Pillow-talk after the last fight with Kerrigor. Sort of.
( She would have to tell him later that he should work on his timing a bit more. Confessing on the edge of the battle with evil was almost overdramatic. )

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My favorite is the Code Geass fic, I think. I excuse this bout of, uh, wordcount because I feel guilty for going back on my New Year's resolution of posting one (1) story per month. I was just barely hanging on, and then May slid by. *sigh* Ah, well. On the bright side #2, in a month I have done about half of my total fic word-count for the entirety of 2008. Boss. Let's just not talk about how much of that was anonymously-written smut, okay.

I was going to write a post explaining some of the absurdity and incredible fuckery that's been going on with me and my family and my world in general, but. I don't know. I hate doing that. It's like, I don't want to act like people are supposed to care, because that isn't fair AND I HATE IT WHEN I WHINE, baw.

SO. PROMPT ME FOR DRABBLES/DOODLES. Any fandom, I don't care. Check my tags for ideas. C'mon, bbs, talk to me. Please? It's been so quiet. ♥ ♥ ♥

This has sat on my computer since, obscenely, October. fadedfeathers is almost entirely to blame. And goddammit, this is so long. I'm kicking you off my hard drive, fic. Good riddance and leave me alone.

Letters to Flowers and Wine
Peacemaker Kurogane // Hijikata/girl!Souji, PG
9163 words
Girl!Souji AU genderswitch, the Shieikan days version. All pre-Kyoto, in which Hijikata is a confused, sexist samurai-wannabe and Souji is a girl who can kick his ass seven ways to Sunday.

( Hijikata does not write love poems. )

Things that make me happy:

• People showing up out of nowhere to tell me my stupid story made their day. Goddamn, that's cool.


• Sleeping in the yard. This will be one of my favorite things until the rain stops and the grass gets gross and scratchy. The neighbors probably think I'm crazy, but oh it feels beautiful.


• Having a regular job! :D :D :D Am at the bookstore two days a week now.


• NOT BEING SICK. I AM A GIANT FAN OF NOT BEING SICK. [If I disappear for a month or so, it's generally safe to assume I've been felled by illness. I never mean to worry anyone, but getting sick makes me pretty listless, and so I just don't update.]

( ohh rise up rise up rise up now from the earth )

Alex and I have decided to start a subversive rock band. It will be called Testicles and Tree-Rape, and our first single will be called "Vaginas All Over His Body." Does that sound like instant success or what.

So, Animazement.

( le con )

( photos )

( art biz )

Anyway. I'm crashing really hard now, and then getting up in the morning to slink back to my site commissioners and humbly ask them what on earth they need from me. I hope I'm not actually sick.

( WHY YES I AM FEELING VERTIGINOUS TODAY )

+teacake inventory 2009

This was kind of accidental.

Clairaudients
Wild Adapter // Kubota/Tokitoh, PG-13ish
1412 words
Based on Minekura's 2005 Christmas Special AU. By liadhdain's request: what happened after.

( They went south. )

HEY FLASH

GUESS WHAT

UP YOURS

( it works it works it works it works it works it works it works )

*sickly smile* I live.

( but this cup of wine all salt and brine makes me sleepy )

How that went: pretty well, all things considered. I didn't do anything weird, and all the professors acted proud of me. It was cold, which kind of sucked, but eh. After spending a collective 12 hours in a car with my professor-man, I managed to not bring up any horribly inappropriate topics like bad Harry Potter fan fiction or terrible 80's anime. I did explain Anonymous to him, though. And I solemnly apologize to everyone who lives there, but I really, really do not like South Carolina. Ugh. I am sick of that state and have had my fill of it for the next few years.

( Things I am entering in the MMAS student show: )

eta--I don't know why these aren't displaying from Facebook. orz YOUTUBE.

Uh, right. I do live. For right now, though, I have no internet in my room, so I'm languishing around, grumbling about that. Forgive me for being slow on catching up. I really wonder about this school, sometimes. I mean. What logic is there in making just about every important aspect of classes online, and then not...having a huge priority on keeping the network up in the dorms, even though the net works fine in the ratty-looking computer labs? Ugh. Gj resnet.

Art and photos later when my net works.

*clicks heels*

Also, stickers over on saraliner. Currently up: Code Geass, D.Gray-Man, Death Note, Eva, and Wolf's Rain. Still to be done and posted: Avatar, Mononoke, Peacemaker Kurogane, Ronin Warriors. Comments embraced and welcomed and stuff.

I saw a performance of Rosencrantz and Guildenstern last night. *fist of justice* I will flail about that tomorrow after I finish Tartuffe.

(I like these rules a lot. They give me heart.)

So it's been a while. I have been drawing pretty consistently, if not terribly well, but I just kind of scanned things and then forgot about them. Also my wrist went ka-blam for a few days, and uhhh. Yeah, had to take a break from my tablet. Is much better now, if a little sensitive. Have been writing. I, uh, popped into the springkink V-Day kink meme and wrote two things, but I refuse to say what they were. XD;; Also I spent a while over the weekend gathering my fan fiction from here and various memes and 'thons, and that is up on crake, more or less chronologically posted.

( If your body can match what your eyes can do, you'll probably move right through me on my way to you. )

( more rambling about my nerdy conference: )

*stretches* Hi, guys, hi. ♥ I am in my favorite computer lab in the world, and I'm flaggin' fast. In the words of the indomitable this_is_my_name, what are the haps?

TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME, not_cynical. Dear god I can't believe I wrote so much for something that no one is going to know orz. But I'm not REALLY complaining, because hey now this is finally done and currently writing aggravates my wrist less than drawing, so this is a nice break.

If you don't know what Sword of the Stranger is, then go see the trailer here or the small_fandoms post here and FOR SHAME if you ignored me when I blathered about it briefly in August. Basically you should just watch it because then you will have seen a beautiful, badass film, and then you can read my stupid, dopey story. XD I for one can say that I do not want to see this movie again for a very long time, because I have watched it over and over in the last couple of months in order to write this. ;;

Looking at said small_fandoms post will show exactly where this came from, i.e. PEER PRESSURE IS A WONDERFUL THING and I bellyroll when encouraged.


Two Happy Genius Heroes
Sword of the Stranger // G holy wow no kidding
4812 words
Nanashi and Kotarou, after the dust has settled. Sort of. There's a lot of dust to settle.

( Very early in the morning of the first day of the rest of their lives, Nanashi woke in the dark with a cold nose snuffling in his ear. )

A short film that I turned in for my film class final last semester. It's supposed to be a pseudo-documentary about what scares people, the nature of fear, etc. After a month and a half, I finally dragged it back into AfterEffects to fix the things that made me hate it. I'm actually...happy with it, if I do say so myself.

( c'mon, just watch it. you know you wanna see us in action. )

Procrastination, rehabilitation. I have a Faustus paper to write and a book on wabi-sabi to read. I think this will conclude everything I have that can possibly distract me, though. My excuse is that my rice is cooking.

--anyway, holy crap, I don't know why I haven't posted this stuff. It's been building for weeks. This is super image-heavy.

( had to get out of the house, had to use my feet )

( and some links that caught my eye. )

Not--not together. Just...in the same post. I'm afraid I'll forget altogether, because sometimes I'm really bad about that.

There was another Mononoke fic/art-a-thon. My stuff from the last one is here.

Medicine Seller
PG // 1347
Prompt: chrysalis
( Read more... )

Medicine Seller/future!Kayo, sort of
PG-13ish // 3078 words
Prompt: A modern or future incarnation of Kayo as something like a programmer or scientist.
( Read more... )

I did a picture, too, but I don't like it very much. Round-up post of everything is here. I liked a lot of things this time, though I wish we'd gotten more stuff. It's the time of year, I think. I have a few prompts that I still want to do, bad, and I will, so expect those sooner or later. My poor little Natsume Yuujinchou crossover is at about 800 words right now, I can't abandon it.

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And....oh yeah, that kink meme. I don't have the energy to edit the other two things I wrote, so uh. I wrote ( this girl!Kubota thing ) which I want to go back and do over, longer and playing around more, but for what it is, not bad. And I wrote ( this Wild Adapter...thing ) which is an absolute fucking train wreck, but. Oh well.

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For the record, I have an approximate metric fuckton of art that's been building. I have been dumping it in a private post for safe-keeping, and now I think I'm kind of just forgetting to post it. And I'd post it now except I think I have something to add to it and I'm typing kind of drunkenly because today has been very. long. I had three rough classes, a night out with the boy, stress of almost losing my cell phone, and then Katamari Damacy and Youtube shenanigans. My social life is kind of sad, but I have fun. I am very sleepy and full of love and goodwill.

Because GUYS I HAVE HEAT AGAIN. My room is so warm. Last night I slept with my laptop charger to keep me warm [and it was SPECTACULAR] and I woke up and there was a 16-degree windchill that put the temp at -10F. D: D: D: But heat! Heat. Yummy heat, never leave me again.

♥